Thursday, August 24, 2006
hi back agian in this saying what i want to say to her in here hope one day she will know why i wan to break off with her. This morning around 2 midnight b4 i slp i message her this answer she wanted to know (you have already walked in my heart but i need to let u go) because i don't not want to broke of with her is the way she treats this r'ship. After that i wake up in the morning feeling very sick my frens called me and she also message me asking me about the 5 things i like off her the 1st time she send me this message i really don't care about it much till i broke off with her then i understand how important is this message to her so i reply her back with Caring, Act cute,Always bully me, Helpful and Willing to sarfice anything for me it is from my heart this is what i really wan to say maybe it's too late but i still got to say i nvr forgot her in my life after all this message i send i when to gin moh to take my uncle car for service when i start to heard my mp3 i heard this song call gou gou shou from guo mei mei i eyes start to wet and i feel very uneasy but i still listen finish it cause this is the song i send her telling her it is a very meaningful song for us to listen and understand it real meaning in it. And Afternoon around this time (12:30) i was at west coast mac alone waiting for my uncle car to be ready and flashing back all the memory i wan to remenber from her cause i think this is the percious moments i want to recover the moments i wil keep in mind so far i don't think anyone will be able to walk in to my heart as my heart don't not have any room spare for anyone to come in esp: a girl name layhong cause she really don't understand what i really want her to do cause i found her kinda blur in everything she do. Her frens and family got to tell her every single step what can do what cannot do which make her turn out like a robot jus like that is wasn't clear what i actually know her for the real thing i wan is to let her be my fren that's all i want i like to have more fren that's all but she think in a wrong way she thought i want to know her is because i wan to stead with her i try telling her how could i even timer to anyone i don't wan to be a jerk to anyone say i explain to her telling her everything she should know but until now she still don't understand my love to jen ching is like life sentence in prison won't be able to get out so easy. She is making my life stress but i got no choice as she really cannot understand what i wan her to know. Maybe time may let her understand i don't really care if she will be my fren now as i really don't have any mood for all this i had enough i just wan to make clear that i broke off with jen ching is not because of anyone is just her that's all i know it maybe a very bad broke off but still wan to say i won't regret it as i know one day i will go back for her unless she have a new half than i will let go and wish her all the best cause i understand love is really not a good thing to settle and i amire all the couple who have already when to marriage and start there second level off there life maybe i won't have the chance to go thru that but i understand if this 1 stage we cannot make it 2nd and the 3rd stage off our life won't be happy at all. i felt from so high but i am climbing back to what i was b4 ok ba so long for today ..........
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