Friday, April 03, 2009
haiz tell me what to do. i called her yesterday but she don't say anything much but from hearing her voice is enough to make me cry out the whole night without even trying to. guess this is how powerful love can be. After i hang up with her i really cannot control myself all the flash back from young comes to my mind. i really feel so bad about myself why choose to leave her. I guess my heart is still with her. Regardless of where or who she is with. i think that's it my love life will be over soon but i still cannot get over with it. i know when i go back the chances of patch back is always there because i think she is not that heartless.
I really cannot imagine if she really got a bf to replace me. i think i will totally break down in to pieces. I guess i am really stupid. After knowing the do's and don't of a girl i still can fail the love test. Can't imagine that a 90 point guy like me can fail to this.
Anyway i am trying to forgot her so i actually keep on keeping myself bz like working,driving around and cooking dinner for my frens in the SQN. i hope it works i know i still cannot control my feelings cause every night if i don't not feel tired and slp early the flashback will come back. The flashback is so sweet but the real life is already over. i still can imagine that time when i and her is from the high sch. Plus i still can clearly flashback how i ask her and the time b4 we are together. haiz..... don't say already.
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