Tuesday, April 07, 2009
is me agian all alone at my house. It feels so cool and lonely in the nights which make me scare when everythings turns the other way i don't feel myself anymore. No Joy No nothing just me and this lonely room that i got. I don't know how she can get over with this pain but not for me i feel every single pieces of my heart break in pain until i cannot even feel myself anymore. Life now is not as good as i was before. Things changes and it was no longer in my play. I guess i really got kick out of the game already. I really very scare when i go back to SG i will saw her with another guy i don't know what will happen i am so scare but i don't tell anyone. I always try to control when i am out but once everyone is gone i will break down agian like no one cares. i still got 7 weeks more i don't know how am i going to hang on to this. I really cannot imagine this day will come to me agian OMG!!!! So Pain !!!!!
- Tuesday, April 07, 2009;