Friday, November 27, 2009
well back agian hmm... is late at night all of sudden got some thoughts that flash in my mind and i started to text a fren of mine which i know recently and "her". 1st just wan to tell this new fren that i know that she is a kind girl just that she got to change her way of behaving if she don't want ppl to take her as a gangster girl. 2nd as for her dunno why after text my fren more thoughts came in to my mind that make me wonder why she text me that day. Is she really happy with her life now? or started regreting ? well i don't know about that but i just have a feeling that she is not as happy as before. than i choose to text her just to give her some strength to move on with her life hope my words can encourage her to walk on happily cause i still rmb her smiles everytime i dream of her is like the best things on earth. So i know she saw my blog recently just hope she is happy.
Yao
- Friday, November 27, 2009;
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
well back agian to this place. hmm... is been awhile since i last saw "her" sms i was shock when i saw her sms i thought she have already went to her new life with her current bf. Hmm... well after reading and reply on her sms i felt that i have changed, i can control my feelings much more better having myself thinking in a clearer way rather than sitting down emontionly by myself. Well it seems like she is not happy at all with her bf but i guess life change people change. This impact make me move on alot i started to go club with frens and change of new styles here and there it's been a very wonderful learning jounery kinda like this life now. Maybe now i just feel kinda sad for her i wish i could have the courage to help her back but after some thoughts i guess i should stay low so she can forgot me when time goes by day by day. well i had told her that i will be staying single for now or maybe longer as i told her i still cannot find anyone that is worth to take over her place in me. Well cause i still rmb what she told me when i was with her and when she break off with me while i was in states. This 2 sentences is the worse ones i heard so far. 1st is she said i wasn't suppose to had a gf cause i am too firt and i cannot see who is fren and who is gf. 2nd was during my time in states she said i am better living without u this sentence mean i am the wall that was blocking her all the time well everything is over now but this 2 sentences make me understand that i am not a good bf and i care too much for ppl till my partner is always worry for me. Anyway the things i wanted to say is may fate bring her all the happiness she can get cause after all girls are mend to be love and not cry.
Yao.
- Tuesday, November 24, 2009;
Thursday, November 05, 2009
dunno what to type here today but just want to rmb the dream i had after so long. i dream of her agian feelings are so real just like before i left for PV. the moments are there the feelings are so true i felt her in my arms agian don't know why i really wish it is true. i thought i already trying to chase another girl that i know recently but i guess i was wrong glad that i have not hurt anyone yet. hmm.. dunno when can i really forgot her dunno how much am i going to damage myself to de-stress but yet maybe this is what i get for archieving my childhood dreams that day. My life really did change when i fly to USA alot of friends said the same thing. Are u Yao?? no matter what happens or what people say i guess closing my own door is the best choice to make. haven really forgot her before i will always think of what is she doing , is her bf treating her good , is she happy ? etc. Well i don't know maybe our story doesn't really end yet. ching really wish u happy as always i just wants to know that u are happy that's all. Sorry i am not a good bf i should have not left u alone . i am selfish sorry
yao
- Thursday, November 05, 2009;
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
haiz back to this blog agian !! do i really cannot start another r/s anymore why i feel so down everytime when her name is out? i thought i already let go already ? Why everytime this feelings is always here. how should i start my own life !!! really wonder why she can so ez forgot about everything and have a new bf and i cannot. girls are that heartless?? who can proof me wrong? girls are just a tool? OMG!!! help me please let me let go everything and teach me how to start a new.
- Wednesday, November 04, 2009;