Tuesday, November 24, 2009
well back agian to this place. hmm... is been awhile since i last saw "her" sms i was shock when i saw her sms i thought she have already went to her new life with her current bf. Hmm... well after reading and reply on her sms i felt that i have changed, i can control my feelings much more better having myself thinking in a clearer way rather than sitting down emontionly by myself. Well it seems like she is not happy at all with her bf but i guess life change people change. This impact make me move on alot i started to go club with frens and change of new styles here and there it's been a very wonderful learning jounery kinda like this life now. Maybe now i just feel kinda sad for her i wish i could have the courage to help her back but after some thoughts i guess i should stay low so she can forgot me when time goes by day by day. well i had told her that i will be staying single for now or maybe longer as i told her i still cannot find anyone that is worth to take over her place in me. Well cause i still rmb what she told me when i was with her and when she break off with me while i was in states. This 2 sentences is the worse ones i heard so far. 1st is she said i wasn't suppose to had a gf cause i am too firt and i cannot see who is fren and who is gf. 2nd was during my time in states she said i am better living without u this sentence mean i am the wall that was blocking her all the time well everything is over now but this 2 sentences make me understand that i am not a good bf and i care too much for ppl till my partner is always worry for me. Anyway the things i wanted to say is may fate bring her all the happiness she can get cause after all girls are mend to be love and not cry.
Yao.
- Tuesday, November 24, 2009;