Friday, February 19, 2010
Well. back agian.. this time i am amaze by my own blog it jus amaze me. that i can moodswing myself by looking back at my old blog... than i guess i ask too much ba for a gf which is only with me for awhile.. but i guess i am not that hard to understand if she really use her heart to think about whatever i am trying to say either on sms or anywhere. maybe she had think before but is kept it to herself which makes me even worse. God damn it i jus hate myself sometimes for been so emotional when i know she won't get it.. what i want is always not what i get.. maybe in love life i am always the 1 giving ba.. than till i tired le than choose to slowly give up than they realise what i want. but think agian it will be late le... well... but i guess if the moments we share she is happy than i am good than jiu hao le ba... sometimes i wonder am i really a bf material or i am jus a guy who is mend to walk alone... cause i haven really get a partner which really knows me like i wish they would at least for now. but i know she is trying.. but sometimes i just wanted to say trying issit really the way is the heart that tells u what to do... well maybe i really try to hard to let a girl understand me... ha oh well i guess i muz stop here le.. the more i say the more it hurts... and the colded it gets...
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