Lexus LF-A Concept

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

well am back agian.. ha after so much worry she still go for it and stay over as plan.. jus hope everything is ok.. cause her friends there really don't give me the trust at all i am just totally worry but she just cannot get it.. this kind of feelings only i felt it and this is the second time... i felt this way i thought i have already told her before the reason why and stuffs but she doesn't seems to understand... well when everything seems so well.. things just lost control agian... she choose to stay over and neglect my concern... and i choose to avoid and ingore it. i guess no matter how much worry i am she will just go and thought is alright.. of cz to her it is not the 1st time.. but than agian... that time she is single... but not now.. well haiz.. no need to say le she should be happy right now with her friends..

really hope my dreams issit true this time... i was kinda worry cause my dreams was all about states or some weird dreams with the "she" everytime when i started to get worry i will have weird dreams and things will start to go wrong... really dunno... how to say ... nvm...

Lexus LF-A Concept - Tuesday, March 30, 2010;

ha ... never thought i would write this down here... everytime when i miss any of her events in her life i will feel uncomfortable jus dunno why but i will feel uneasy when she is with other ppl ... did i over do stuffs or is my love to her too much ?? sometimes i even question myself in what position am i to stop her from all this kinda event... i don't feel i am doing right.. instead i feel myself like a road block to her.. but love is selfish issit it?? where u just wan her and only her to be with ??? issit this what every couple is looking for??? i am really puzzled and kinda worry about her for tml i just cannot think right. i jus cannot think that everything is ok. when her so called good friend "Mr H" was there i just don't feel safe.. at first i thought it is ok but jus that once when he did the wrong move.. and don't gain my trust.. i had already lost hope on him.. that he will protect her from my absent cause i won't be able to be with her 24/7 as everyone got to move on by themselves in ways...

well i guess i am jus gonna say till here as the more i say the more puzzle i am i jus wish i don't know .

Lexus LF-A Concept - Tuesday, March 30, 2010;

Monday, March 08, 2010

Where everything's seems to be right.. this feelings came back agian.. was feeling cold and down right now... no matter how hard i try i still walk alone.. i belive i really try too hard to maintan a rs i think the problem is me... haiz.. maybe i jus concern too much. ya maybe like what others said i don't mend to be attached as every little things my partner did that i don't feel right will spoil my day... even if i know why and i can understand problems still came by to say hi!!! well i just know i am confuse and puzzle right now i jus wan to sleep it off i guess... maybe i shld go and let go myself 1 day and don't care about anything i guess it will be the best for me maybe i shld jus be like other normal bf jus hack care and be myself ...

Lexus LF-A Concept - Monday, March 08, 2010;