Friday, August 25, 2006
Hi hi back to the place where i can tell my feelings out but 1st of all let me thanks all my frens that help me out in the test today plus thanks to everyone who is willing to pull me up from this fell but sorry i could not stand all for now cause i don't wan to forgot my happy moments with my gf jen ching until now i still never say she is not my gf i still have her in my heart my gf jen ching i never forgot her till now still wearing the neacklace and hug the dog that she give me can i still cannot forgot her. Life do go on noone will be able to anything if u don't want yourself to move and i am the person now in life that is not moving and jus wan to remenber the past at school when i was on the way to my test something happen to me it was the 1st time i don't feel scare for test,all i can feel is my heart crying crying till i am lost, lost in a way that i don't know what i am doing but jus her my whole mind was thinking of her i try to stop but it cannot, so i force myself to not shown the expression of my sadness to anyone but yet still kind of hard some of my frens still know it. For these few days i have been eating lesser and lesser getting more sad day by day maybe is because without her i really cannot stand but i promise to myself i will wake up from all that and go forward cause i know one day i will go back for her when we both really understand each other better why i did this is all because of one reason wanted her to understand what love really means it does not mean by calling each other and meet up everytime is equal to love. Her Mind set is wrong love is actually some kind of power that we all humans have only it is not known by too much people as many people thought of the way she think is love. Love is a kind of power that u no need to even call her everyday or every hr to know what she doing, love is not like trying to make ur another half happy while u are sad urself all this are not love is just a way to make urself stress to make urself lost the power of what love really brings to u. I may not be a good guy to all but i myself will never regret what i have done to anyone cause i think b4 i act everything ,the answer to all ur action is actually known b4 hand is only wheather u wan to belive or not , so no matter how much i love her i still got to let go cause she don't know what is the real love she is looking for to. Some i let her fell down like me i fell down and i could stand up yet cause sometime if u never fell u will never know why will u fell down what wrong with urself. Only when u fell down then u know why all this happen as people will never think back to what is wrong in he or she whatever they are in a good mood. but i really still cannot forgot her even if one they someone can let me forgot her i won't know wheather my heart is still able to keep anyone person in anot? cause my heart is already stolen by her............. erm... jus abit of add on this song is just for her to know my feeling for her.. and i am glad my fren all found there love i am happy for them haha that's all
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